I am writing this for me. If anyone deigns to read this, keep that in mind. I cannot seem to keep a journal, but I am online quite a bit so I thought I would give this a try.
I have been so done lately, even with my happy pills, sometimes I find it hard to keep myself on an even keel. I try and do things, get outside, read a book, just do something but I find it easier to be in bed sleeping or watching tv. I am not sleeping well and the past couple of days I have spent more time online playing games on FB than I have in the last month. I can feel my butt getting flatter and my stomach getting bigger!
I am trying to rediscover who Sara is and I keep stumbling. I am so tired of feeling like a complete and utter failure. I cannot seem to get a job, one job said I wasn't right for them and the other said I was ineligible to work for them at this time. I had to wait 60 days and I could reapply! I need work now!!! I am barely able to pay my bills! My dad has been helping me a little and I have been trying not to ask because I know he has his own troubles. Just tired of all the little things and big things just piling and piling on. Seems as if I can barely walk sometimes.
I just want to get it right.
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